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It's been quite a while since I last wrote anything
I'm watching Harrison Ford's "firewall" and am actually surprised
Kind of cool to see him still doing great action movies
I've been gone for a while I know
Life has been beating me like a runaway slave
But I've taking my beating like a man and made it through
It all started when my car overheated on the way to work
$1500 transmission damage
My savings was exhausted and it seemed I had no where to turn
I was down to my last option of selling my stocks
I had to kick my pride to the curb and ask for help
My uncle stepped in and came through with no questions asked
I've always maintained that I had a great family
I got my car back and the same thing happened
That was when I found out that I had accidentally put some unknown fluid in my radiator
I went home and checked the container marked "Antifreeze" and sure enough...
It wasn't antifreeze
So was all this my fault
This only made things feel worse for me
I had killed my car unknowingly
I was mad at the dealership at first for telling me it was a transmission problem
Then I remembered that the transmission was effected
It was 5,000 miles past my hundred thousand mile service time
Then my wife is mad at the dealer
So I got all these angry and confused people around me
and none of them are helping the situation
My bank account was negative at this point
I remember my homeless brothers and sisters
I smiled because through them I had seen that life was still not over
Their testimonies gave me strength to push on
I calmed down and talked to my business partners
Lonnie J and Rodney were there as usual
I didnt need their knowledge of cars
Didn't need their money
Didn't even need a ride from them
What I did need were their positivity
I needed their encouragement
ANd like clockwork they came through as always
So I was breathing again, floating with a negative bank account and not knowing how I was getting from point A to point B
That's when God starting working
They always say that he may not come when you want him but he's always right on time.
my father called and said "why didnt you tell me you had no car!"
I was just so used to him not being able to help me financially
I never thought to ask him for help
My father was car pooling now and said I could drop him off and take his lincoln to work
It was a hard lesson learned that life is not always about finance
But about people loving and working together to overcome adversity
The dealership offered to help me get a new car
So we negotiated for a full day ending with me walking out
No car, still trusting God
Knowing that I shouldnt take something that will make me worse off than I am now
And $848 per month for 4 years would punish me severely (lol)
So I told them to call me when they could do better or I would just drive my car until it blew up!
I managed to save up around $600 to complete the repairs on my car
At this point I was behind 2 car notes and late on several other bills
Still surrounding myself with positive conversation
Still praying daily
And on friday the dealership called and said they got a better offer
I went in on Saturday with my wife who I asked to cosign
Had to lose a little pride to do that, but I managed
I kept my cool and sent back several offers until
I finally walked away with the keys to a 2006 jeep grand cherokee
they payed off the $10,300 I owed on my last car
They payed the $600 I owed to get it fixed
They paid for my tag and title registration (which was due on my birthday on the 16th of june)
And I walked away back at point A!
revived
$10.47 in my bank account
I wasnt thinking about the nice SUV I had just gotten
Even to this day it doesnt mean nearly as much as the help I received from family and friends
My wife sacrificing to drive me to work and pick me up
My dad lending me his Lincoln
My Uncle giving me cash
My partners giving me positivity and encouragement
So when I'm riding I think not of the vehicle
It's merely a tool to get from point A to point B
But the relationships i've built over the years are priceless
And for those alone i am smiling
I smile because of a closeness to God that i've got these past weeks
I breath easy as my bank account grows back each week
And I understand the power of faith even more
I think of the song I recorded called "I've Got Nothing" and also one called "if I should Lose"
Where I speak on the fact that if I lose everything that I've ever owned
God knows that I will be alright!
And to be able to lose so much so fast (money, car, etc) and still come out smiling
I know that my words are not just hollow attempts to make melody
You should know that my words are my life
And you shouldnt write off my music as simply "entertainment"
Words are very powerful tools that can make or break a man
And I'm proud to say that my words have been fulfilled
My soul feels free, I've proven to myself that I can live by my own standards
Kind of like I've gotten another beam out of my own eye...
And now...
I start again.
One Love
Mario D'Andre Robinson
www.zealotdandresdream.com
